Graduation!

Am going to sleep very soon, gotta wake up very early tomorrow! 8am! goodness.. at least i will try and sleep la, been sleeping at unearthly hours for the past 3 days, earliest i think is 4am, everyday has got its own reasons.. anyway attending the real estate agent training tml morning and make my way back to Jurong after that for weekly SHG sessions! wonder what fun this week will bring.. woooo hoo~!! heard that there's gonna be food involved! FOOD!! how can anyone miss the food?!?! definitely gonna go! =)

Woke up 2pm today.. class starts 2pm too!! what a conincidence! rushed down, not bad, in the end only 30minutes late, and the lecturer only at page 5! only Felicia went for the afternoon class too, think the rest went for the morning class, not that it matters anyway, during lecture i either listen or sleep! rarely talk.. not really interested in the lecture, it's ER, what you expect? i'm not gonna do well for this module anyway, idiot. ended early today, Felicia followed me back as she had time to spare, so we can go down to causeway together.. she said she had this huge urge to tidy up my room for me because its just too messy, really like a typical housewife! and she cannot tell who's younger between me and my brother!! super strange, must be because she didnt see the height difference la.. or maybe i just look too young le! ;p muahahhaha!! had my fav MOS burger at causeway before i made my way down to meet Dennis, who is late today =s but i late ytd la.. =p, at Toa Payoh for the class.. dunno what is it with today, but all lectures seem to end early today! never make full use of the time.. ai yo yo~

Ytd woke up late as usual, i really hate that but i just cant seem to be disciplined enough to wake myself up early in the morning, i dont think anyone have the ability to wake me up every morning, just cant see it happening.. dunno how i'm gonna suffering next time i go work.. sure die! =s late for the macro class again, really jia lat, i dont get what the lecturer is teaching now, totally lost, must really study!! study study study!! damn it study! afternoon went for HMT lecture with Felicia and Liangming, they zao during the break to go to the comex show! what the hell lor, leaving me alone~ luckily still got adeline, kent they all.. went to meet Fulvia after class, she was at SIM for her graduation ceremony!! congratulations girl! sooooo many people present for the thing.. huge event.. guess it's only fair that the family all come to see their son/daughter graduate after paying so much money!! die die at least must take a photo la!! but i dont think my parents will be free to make it down on the day of my graduation, provided i graduate la! was telling Fulvia she's lucky to have graduated le, i now scared i will not graduate 2 years later, maybe 3 years or forever never! whooo... saw all of her friends there too! its been a while since we all last met, still remember last year they all celebrate my birthday for me! woot! anyway took alot of photos for them, catch up with all of them and also got take some photos with them! =)

i'm the only one not looking at the cam.. -_- too many cams le la.. i look like one of them?!!? =p

After all those photo takings, went to tong shui AGAIN to have dinner with Fulvia, Joanne, Wee Ling, Priscillia and Fai Ming, to catch up a bit on our lifes too.. =) actually was supposed to be just an outing with Fulvia and Faiming because we're the August babies! i named this meeting every year the dinner with no dance party for August Babies!! but this year a bit special la.. so ok lor, but next year gotta hold it for August Babies again!! went for mahjong session after that!! won won won!! woot!! went for supper at orchard mac at 3am!! crazy.. reached home and slept at 5am like that.. another crazy night.. =s

Am gonna go try and sleep now! she asked me to try vodka.. i said she's crazy.. she cant sleep now too.. very tempted to call her and chat with her.. woot! hahhaah! tml early morning! =) nights! =)

Fatty Van Der Devil

Crazy Life!!

Was so damn tired today, late for class again! damn.. trying very hard to catch what the lecturer is teaching during lecture, must really revise the topics every week just to be able to know what he's talking about.. not really that lost but can be easier.. after lecture went out and the weather sucks.. raining cats and dogs.. went to meet Dennis and Wei Yong and we went for gym at Khatib! Raymond and Justin joined us too. we had alot of fun, i always get very motivated only with Dennis around, look at his muscle motivates me!! my aim! but so hard to achieve! darn~

Went for the night class for the real estate training, today is the first official lesson since the last one is pretty much crap i feel.. some sort of motivation talk by the boss himself and we had to actually walk on broken glass bare footed! at first i thought it was some joke, but then it's really happening! crazy~ nobody got hurt la, though we had to sign some indemity form before walking the glass.. dunno to prove what also, feels very similar to a MLM company, though i know it's not la.. but the approach and style pretty much similar.. (= Anyway, today's lesson was really a nightmare, maybe worst! totally catch no ball, no basketball, no football, no handball!! very pek cek, all the terminology i dont understand, looks like it's hard work from now on.. =s

I suddenly feel everything is moving too damn fast in my life, i dunno where to start how to start anything, felt so lost, helpless?! well, i put myself in this situation so i cant really blame anyone for it but myself, it's just that i'm not sure whether i can pull all these off or not.. so many things coming, can i priortise properly and correctly? there's this real estate thing, my assignment which is gonna due soon, i dont wanna end up burning late night train to finish it up again, at least i hope, and there's econ tests coming up, both the micro and macro, after that will be all the exam papers which will be coming up shortly.. plus all those activities that i'm invloved with, archery, kick-boxing, salsa, yoga and also meetings with friends, all which i'm not prepared to let go, i really wanna complete them.. but i'm not sure whether i got time for everything! this is a HUGE challenge for me now.. i wanna make it through this, i know i can.. i know i must! i will! trust me! =)

Trust trust trust... this word is such a simple yet mysterious word with loads of weight on it.. to be honest, i dont trust anyone at all, other than my parents, dont think i even trust my very own brother, the only people i trust in this world is my mum and dad.. its nice to earn trust, but hard to maintain it, it's such a fragile thing, very easily broken! its really easy to just ask people to trust you, but whatever you do after that people will be judging you on whether u can keep your promise of trust.. it sucks to know that u've lost trust from someone, i seem to be in that kind of position ever so often.. is it the way i portray myself? or is it my actions?! or could be it be that i have to trust others first before i can earn and maintain that level of trust? is that one part of the balance of life?!

Sometimes i just sit there and wonder to myself, just what is going on with life? why is it so messed up now, so untidy and so non-directional?! cant be so because of a girl right?? that's really pathetic i feel, even more so if only one party is feeling that way.. what is it that i wanna achieve? Its all in the mind.. but do you wanna control it? can i face the reality of things straight right up in my face and smile at it because it's there?! is the courage there? =s

I believe that the distance that i'm using to look at things right now is damn close, maybe even sticking to my face.. that's why i'm so stuck right now.. the problem is how to get that distance far back?! there are times when i can step a big step back and look at things differently, i really love looking at things from a far distance, it just makes me smile, when i realise how big the world actually is, and how small and probably insignificant my life is, it just makes me feel better.. like why am i so cocked up and thinking so much about this particular thing that's bothering me when there's so much more happening out there?! why concentrate on ur life, why not go out and observe others, u can only learn that much looking at your own life, but the amount of things you can learn from other people's live is unlimitless! there's so much other things, what's so great about yours? it's the sum of everyone's lifestory that forms the system and theory to life.. our individual life is nothing, it's the world's life that's interesting.. cheers and rejoice to that! hahahah!! =)

I'm gonna go try and study abit now, i really hope i can screw some things in and throw other useless thoughts out.. work hard for the beautification of life! muahahahha!! sounds like a mad man~ =p

Fatty Van Der Devil

Crazy Night!

Now the time is 4:35am.. i'm still awake! haiz.. my plan failed terribly ytd, wanted to ta han all the way till 9pm then sleep all the way till the next day and carry on with the momentum and lead a healthy lifestyle! but then...!! i 'fainted' some time in the morning and woke up late afternoon.. crap! haiz.. it's really not easy, i've got class later at 930am, planning to take bus there, i'm gonna make it! i hope.. =)

Went out to meet Betty for lunch after i woke up, had barbequed pork mixed with organic vegetables and soft smooth yellow mee seasoned with mysterious soy sauce and some potent chicken soup, accompanied with a bowl of slow-flowing, jellyish dumplings! the stall name is happy wanton mee! there's so many different choice of food over at the bukit timah market, though there is a number of stalls not opened, but still.. ALOT! after that went to Westmall, was plannning to watch a movie but no timing, so in the end went home lor.. had dinner at home, KFC! sinful.. then went out to meet Tracy for supper! took LRT there, save $$, had crispy fried fish with silky bee hoon in the milky way soup base! actually meet up to return her the money she helped paid for the salsa class. thanks Tracy! woo hoo! (=

Was walking back after sending Tracy home then Betty called, she wanted to meet up for some Murtabak! she's crazy la.. it's almost 11pm le, but she dont come out that late normally, so had to accept her invitation for late supper though i just ate less than one hour ago! she intro a new friend to me! Mr Dong Yi! hahhaa.. fun guy, when he can come out at this kind of hour definitely is a fun guy.. went to Bukit Timah area for prata.. we wanted to order just a murtabak to share, so we settled for gold cheese melted with flour from supermarket, sprinkled with small pieces of meat plucked from the chicken body and slices of sure-fart onions, completed with eggs by the very chicken that was murdered for pieces of its meat.. for drinks, i ordered the combination of tea leaves from india mixed with premium water from Malaysia treated in Singapore, milk from cows from singapore, normally those cow-peh and cow-bu.. the leaves were then filtered out, leaving only the liquid which will be transferred from one cup to the other to check for any debris or discrepancy in the drink, to complete the drink, bubbles are added on top for those kids who love to play with it! can pop them! =) people normally call it teh-tarik.. nice drink.. recommended! the murtabak really HUGE la.. the three of us struggling to finish it, had to play guessing game to see who finishes the last few pieces.. then Betty had this crazy idea of ordering another one to play the guessing game and the loser will eat! i on her la! Dong Yi never really say anything so we ordered! the waiter like a bit shock we're ordering another one.. hahahh! i ordered another drink! Same grade tea leaves and water but this time no milk but instead it's combined with sugar water carefully extracted from the saliva of those guys with a damn sweet mouth, there's also ice that's from the extra energy saving fridge! iced teh-o.. super nice! ok la.. no more crap liao, describe till gao gao! the second murtabak came then we played lots of games, damn funny! Dong Yi lost alot of times.. poor thing, he's pretty mindful about his fitness level, but he very on, lose already will eat everything, with the second murtabak gone, Betty still wanna play more, so we bet on the curry! i lost.. damn it! wa.. i drank the whole bowl down! damn spicy la! =s

Paid up and was planning to go back then Betty wanted to eat ice cream, dunno what's with her, suddenly so on and hungry all at the same time.. we went to 2 macdonalds but both the ice cream machine spoil! muahahah! really fate la.. so in the end we bought 2 large drinks, we also took 3 packets of curry, 1 packet of syrup, ketchup, chilli!! continued out games, really crazy la, i had to finish the chilli! always lose on the spicy punichment.. crap.. but the rest i'm spared la.. heng ar.. hahahah!! drink until super high, went home around 3am! wow! was actually planning to do some revision for my PM, haiz.. forget it la.. see when free again lor, going for training later again.. =s but before that should be meeting Dennis and probably going for gym! see how whether i'm too tired or what.. =s

Must go try and sleep now le! or else sure suffer later! argh.. =s nights!

Fatty Van Devil~

Friendship 3.5

Busy rush damn packed! now my life is like totally stuffed with activities le, activites that i do not know whether i can keep up with or not, so much things! must keep focus on everything, seem to lose myself so easily nowadays, but i'm pretty much back on track, now is an important period in my life, another book, a new chapter, another paragraph, new sentence, another word, capital letter. i'm so not sure whether i'm ready for it.. gotta just bring it on and we'll see!!

Went to sign up for the training course today at Propnex, so now i'm officially training to be a real estate agent le! hmm.. anyone who has any enquires or wish to buy/sell/rent anything regarding property can look for me! this challenge quite exicting, super new, taking risk! good luck! i'm doing it with Dennis, it's always more fun with another friend with you. we're gonna chiong all the way! at least that's what he said~ =) paid $628 for it! damn expensive! but at the end of it will receive a cert and i'm thinking i can learn alot with this course alone so i went ahead with it. i didnt know there's 4 lessons per week for the course! i only know of it just before i paid for the course, too lazy to turn back and think about it again. so now every mon, wed, fri, and sat i'm going for the course training, 7 to 10pm! it took me exactly 1 hour to reach back home today! crap! but public transport really more fun la.. cheaper too.. ;p

Told my dad that i want a payroll system for me.. i'm asking for $400 per month, so little right?! i use to take almost double of that amount at army, plus i've been asking around and almost everyone is drawing a higher 'pay' than me.. LOL! too bad my family poor, so i have to really have proper money management plan le.. another challenge, so if i wanna continue to learn all those things that i want to learn by this year, and also excel at being a property agent, every cent count now.. no more spending with one eye closed le.. save save save! i'm planning to take bus to school, petrol really killing, but that means i'll have to wake up damn early lor.. =s now i have to big out $100 for the salsa lessons.. damn.. should have taken $$ from mum before i open that stupid mouth of mine to discuss about the monthly allowance! =s nvm! challenge! at most not enough $$ go borrow from friends lor.. hiak hiak hiak! here i come people! get ready to receive my call! =p

Salsa lesson happening on every thurs night, super zhun, like jigsaw puzzle fit till so nicely the timing, so the only day of the week i'm gonna be free will be tuesdays.. sunday i've got archery.. and i'm actually planning to add yoga into the scehdule too, probably sunday mornings.. will really have to see how that goes.. haiz.. cannot neglect studies! later go revise on macro and micro econs! =) anyway i'm not planning to sleep tonight, going to ta han all the way till 9pm then sleep all the way till the next day, then continue that healthy lifestyle all the way! i'm gonna reduce the number of suppers and sleepless nights! better if no more, but i think that is pretty difficult.. reduce first lor.. must have a plan out and follow it! discipline and commitment! something which i've not practised consistently, the longest i went i think was probably 3 weeks, after that back to old habits.. i'm planning to break that record since it seems like breaking records is as easy as breaking eggs during the Olympics!

Weekends are as usual, nowhere near home! =s home is just like hotel, just for sleep.. must change out that kind of mentality.. saturday went for SHG as usual, it's chinese chess week! lesson conducted by Hui, at first i thought he's only gonna teach them the strategies and how to play the game, but he included the history of chinese chess! didnt know that's such thing, like very related to the history of China.. nice~! but kids being kids, they're not really interested in chinese chess, i think my group only Deline interested to learn, Kenny and Boon Neng as usual just goofing around, touching and disturbing everything in sight, even Benjamin seem uninterested, pretty surprised, thought that would be a game he'll be interested in.. hahahah! thinking game mah, and he's clever i think.. LOL! he's like very unsettled.. oh well, i got pretty bored too because the level they are in are really too low le, tried to be patient and teach them a bit here and there lor.. Boon Neng thinks he know the game very well and kept on challenging me to a game, Kenny also another one.. Deline and Benjamin just kept quiet.. towards the end it got more interesting because Cindy, another volunteer in my group, tried to learn together with the kids because she didnt know how to play too!! it's nicer to learn together.. then i just gave them tips and guide them on the rules.. i'm speaking like i'm a expert in the game, i'm not! =s one more thing i find puzzling is about another volunteer.. he's supposed to be the volunteer leader for my group, since i'm new and Cindy not really experienced also.. he came that sat, but he sat with another group all the while, i didnt realise that until today when i was thinking about the kids.. my thoughts quite irrelevant la.. anyway, now that i think of it, i dont quite get what he is trying to proof.. is it just a one off incident? or is it he dont like the group and chose to give up on them? well, i just thought that's a wrong thinking and approach, how will the kids think if they know that's happening? in life, not everything will do the way you want or wish it will be.. accept them as they come, dont run away from the problem.. i'm not reprimanding that volunteer at all, i'm not in the position to do so, i'm not him, dunno what he is really thinking, though i must admit i was little disappoint and demoralised by his actions, never even went to talk to the kids! =s whatever~

That saturday night itself went to Janice's 21st brithday party! met up with Jiahong and on the way met Betty Cheryl.. it's just like a gathering session, a catch up session for everyone, i'm not really close with anyone in particular there, maybe Jiahong only.. the rest really is not even those meet up once or twice in a year, they are those heng heng will meet on the streets then will talk cock abit here and there lor.. was with Betty's group all night, not really that comfortable with some people there.. so i'm stuck with a group of young people all night, talking about uni stuff.. how boring.. SIM like very simple and straight forward, NUS and NTU like super complicated.. Betty even worse, she only from the school of flower girl! hahaha! she damn funny la.. =) after the birthday celebration, went for mahjong!! woo hoo! won won won! =)

Sunday afternoon rained! the archery course postponed~!! darn sianz.. was looking forward to shooting some arrows actually.. then stayed at home watched the olympic basketball finals! USA vs. Spain! wa.. not bad, thought will be thrashing, in the end quite exciting.. USA won! yesh! kobe my fav player, i'm starting to like CP13 too! think he's super cool.. at night met up with Ling and Sandra! went for supper, tong shui! the second time in 3 days for me.. Sandra like unhappy the whole trip like that.. =s not i make her angry one! innocent! =) after the supper, sent Sandra home first.. should have sent Ling back first la.. haiz.. because got lost when i sending Ling back.. got lost in Lim Chu Kang.. dunno how i got there also.. we practically went round the whole of kranji plus Lim Chu Kang, went so deep until we reach the neo tiew area, my army urban warfare training site! wa.. quite nice to see that place again, memories.. though i heard alot of stories regarding ghosty stuff la.. i kept on scaring Ling all the way.. hahah.. damn funny.. she kept on screaming.. damn loud!! =s we got lost inside for more than 1 hour!! damn it.. another record made.. petrol expensive! the meter was actually above the half way gauge before i got lost! then after i finally got her to her house, looking at the gauge itself will make me pek cek.. waste petrol la! darn! =s

Got a message from a special friend.. ai yo.. really got me thinking.. i dont think i'll ever recover if i dont have her.. the support and direction in my life.. but everyone will have to lead their own live.. i think the truth is, i'm just scared, i dont want to.. it's very very fustrating for me.. alot of change in my life.. sad changes.. it's not the same anymore.. nothing can be the same i guess.. i really dunno what to think.. pretty confused and lost? =s

Going over to my parent's room to sleep now! got air con! asked my mum not to off the air con before she left the house.. i lazy to on mine, anyway i think mine not cold one leh.. sucks la.. =s go rest i think.. not sure i can ta han the whole day bo.. is this a lack of discipline?! whatever lor~ who cares.. =)

FattyVanDevil

Domain Name!!

In memory of all those innocent people who died needlessly during the recent battle between the Russian and Goergia forces, plus those calefare from the breakaway area, i've decided to write this post using the Georgia font! Bless them in heaven, hope i can go heaven and join them after i die too..

I changed my domain name couple of weeks because i thought that i dont wanna be a fattydevil anymore! wanna be a skinny angel! plus i thought a new domain name which i still think is nice la, but after awhile i think it's abit gu niang, so decided to change it back, budden!! dunno which idiot go and use the fattydevil domain name!! what the hell.. i thought i'll be the only one using that name.. i went to visit that blog, that person is selling some sex pills! bo bian gotta wait for that guy's business to fail before i can get back that nickname.. =s

SHIT!! my computer kena virus! what the hell!! some WORM AUTORUN.BUK virus!! is it a new kind of virus?!?! damn suay la.. argh!! so dead now.. maybe my life like gonna be free of trouble soon le, so kena this one to trouble my mind a bit here and there.

I'm done with all assignments and test for the time being! will be relaxed for at least a week i hope.. phew! but now i abit pissed, the one that i just did, my group member go and edit my part until like all useless sia! damn.. i did quite alot then all those that i think is essential ones are all edited away.. haiz.. i dunno la.. tml try and tell them if they dont listen then too bad.. dont really care le.. i already know i officially screw up my ER assignment le.. my reference list cock up, and i the flow of my essay also cannot make it.. haiz.. this sem jia lat liao.. damn it! =s

KNS! i kena one pimple by the side of my lips! pain! must be due to unhealthy lifestyle.. the fact that i'm not sleeping now proves it.. ytd night i also never got any sleep at all, was trying to do my assignment. went to lecture, had a 5 minute nap, then came back home, had a even longer nap, woke up before 5pm, start to do my stuff again.. then in the end all kena edited away.. !!#$%^&$%^^&&!! idiot.. =s hahahah.. just now went out for supper with Hui at some boon lay place, the nasi lemak there not bad la.. then we went to a quiet place and guess what we did together?!?! hiak hiak hiak.. what can 2 single guys do in the middle of the night alone at somewhere quiet?! play chinese chess! wa.. really ah pek style liao.. Hui good at chinese chess, got read up book somemore, fierce.. he put loads of water against me.. or else i wun even stand a chance.. dunno how i'm gonna survive during the macro class later at 930am.. haiz.. cant sleep! must understand everything! then after that going for some kickboxing! i think i'll just faint and die there la.. not that i'm afraid of dying.. =) hopefully i get to see that girl again.. i'm thinking she wun be there anymore, just guessing.. afternoon got another class, then straight after that i'm meeting Dennis at tao payoh for some seminar.. regarding property agent stuffs! i'm seriously considering joining him too.. just try it out and see how it goes la.. but it's not easy, i called dahlia, my melayu cousin and asked her about it since she last time also in real estate, she told me at the start need to put in alot of time and effort.. not easy.. well, never try never know! =)

Ytd went for lunch with Tracy at Lot 1.. bought smoke again! crap, lost a guessing game then had to buy.. -_-! must stop liao.. *determined* then on the way back, got to chat with her cute/mature younger cousin Marisa! hahaha.. anyway, at night really havoc, had 3 meals for dinner! cannot miss mum's cooking, delicious! got fish, meat and vegetables! then straight after that went out and meet Yiting for dinner again, she had some cravings for some particular dish, accompanied her since she just came back from Turkey! asked her about the trip, sounds really fun.. hope i have the chance to do those travelling too! had hokkien mee then went back after that.. then went to meet Pris after sending Yiting home.. went to SIM to get her, wanted to go tong shui restaurant to have cantonese tim sum.. budden i forgot to get the address for the place! called Jiahong and got a number from him, got to a fax line instead.. -_- in the end we settled for a prata shop beside the 24hr Hans at upper thomson road.. ordered milky prata, bomb prata and mushroom prata! all strange strange one! a disaster in the end.. the bomb prata is just flour plus ALOT of butter and sugar! damn.. cant finish it all, or else sure kena diabeties.. milky prata is HUGE! cannot finish also.. taste a bit strange also.. think they put condensed milk inside.. then the mushroom prata the most normal one.. but the mushroom is ENORMOUS! really big!! hahahah!! had a funny meal la.. laugh non stop.. think the indians there think we crazy.. =s after that we went to upper seletar reservior to relax.. it's nice, tranquil! hahahah.. we sat on a bench that's by the river and chatted for like 3 hours there! fierce.. had to cut short our talk because she's got work tml and i have assignment to rush out.. reached then chiong all the way liao lor.. tired.. =s

Now i'm a bit tired le! finally.. hmm.. got something thinkings nowadays.. actually quite alot.. i'm drama king la.. always got alot of thinkings.. i'm really glad there's someone who cares.. maybe i'm doing everything just waiting for that moment, it felt really good.. really appreciate it alot! thanks! so happy~ hahahah!! Sandra is gonna slap me and Cheong's gonna laugh at me but i'm still gotta say this.. i'm thinking about YOU!! hahahha.. not that i can control part of it.. think only mah.. the perfect girl leh, siao siao.. PERFECT 10! though Sandra is gonna argue about that, only she will do that.. perfect girl, of course will think right?! not that it's affecting my current life right now, though i would love it if she's part of my life.. at least i know it wun as long as i'm sober.. haiz.. life is never fair, things dont always go the way you want it to.. i think the perfect girl is making me think that other relationships are not important in life.. there are many other things in life.. go find it! =) the best i can say now is that we wun know what's gonna happen in the future right?! not that i'm hoping la.. at least i think i'm not.. hahahh! i'm thinking about YOU!! that's all i've gotta say.. Good night!!

Fattydevil =)

It's all in your mind..

Told Sandra and Ling that i'm gonna make a comeback in blogging! so must try and blog more! anyway i've got so much things to say everyday, life is really full of excitment and fun! everyday also got happening things going on, maybe a few days at home then boring la.. but why not go out even if alone? just go walk walk, observe and u'll see another side of interesting life! =)So much happened recently, am gonna hiong everything out tonight! woo hoo!! =)

Talk more about this year brithday celebration.. first of all, THANK YOU TO ALL MY FRIENDS!!!! really really really appreciate all the efforts you guys all made.. super lucky to have known you guys! =) thats why i always say, there's nothing much to complain about in my life, i cant ask for any better le.

Well, if i never remember wrongly, the earliest celebration, one of the most surprising one too, is with Shu Juan, Janice and Jia Ying!! wow.. they were the last person i thought would remember, not even celebrate my brithday with me! Shu Juan contacted me the week before that, rare chat as she's always busy, then she asked whether is it that my brithday is coming! so happy she remembered! she said she forgot the exact date but knew it's coming le and suggested that we meet up one day to have dinner together! 7thAugust08, we met up at AMK ave 3, opposite mayflower sec, supposed to dine at the famous crab bee hoon is it? i dunno the title of the dish la, but anyway, when Jia Hong and me reached there, saw the shop front and realised that it was dark, at first i thought the electricity stopped or is it that they are famous because they provide this kind of ambience.. romantic dinner.. but.. with crabs?!?! crap la.. later will choke on the crab shell instead lor.. turns out it was closed for renovation! so zhun.. darn.. till late sept if i never remember wrongly.. so we went to the crab king's cousin coffeshop, just beside only.. i never had anything from the crab king before, but the cousin side not bad la.. altho very expensive! $160+++ gao gao!! wanted to treat them but they dont want.. =s Shu Juan said that the original crab king ones are better! hmm.. sure to go and try out the real king crab after it reopens! after dinner, when we're leaving for ktv, the three girls gave me a present! wa~ even more shocked.. already very happy and appreciative that they remembered and came out to have dinner with me.. i received a Levi's T-Shirt! woo hoo! though now a bit dirty because of Tracy.. but i'm gonna wash it clean! =) ktv session super tiring la.. cant continue singing after first song le.. i suck at singing! darn.. hahahha.. sang till 2am, treated them this time round.. everyone cannot make it liao, no night life la they all.. weaklings! muahahah! sent them home and that marks one beautiful day of my life.. =)

The next day, friday, met up with Deng Si, army friend, from SSC.. yeah.. i know his name is damn strange la.. the first time i met him, i asked him straight, "how to pronounce your name ar? cant be Deng Si(wait for death) right?!" hahahah! then he gave me that disgusted look but told me his name is pronounced Deng4 Si1, then both of us clicked real well, must be because we're hardworking, fun-loving and professionals at work! muahahah! had another funny encounter with a funny name, happened almost a year ago, was at BBDC with Cheong when he wanted to book a slot at one of the station, then the person before us forgot to take his receipt, we took it and got a shocked with we saw that person's name.. Xie Hong Gan! what the hell?!?! why would anyone name his child this name?! goodness, i cant imagine what kind of teasing he's got all his life.. poor guy.. somemore his name it's my favourite word! everytime say! anyway, back to the main topic, met up with Deng Si at about 7pm for the F.I.R. concert! woo hoo!! had the $168 seats but paid cheaper for it.. first time went to a concert leh, and its not bad, pretty entertaining, Deng Si's friends were also there, all of them 19 year olds.. whenever F.I.R sang, they will wave lightsticks with the beats, then when they sing a super high song, they will stand up and jump with it too! damn.. really young people sia.. of course i joined them! at first a bit pai say la.. but slowly the mood got into me and i'm just in it too! hahaha! super fun la.. they are superfans of F.I.R.! next time there's a concert i'll definitely go again.. =)

Next day, saturday.. hmm.. think i stay at home that day, like nothing special, oh~ i woke up in the afternoon i think.. played mj with Sandra, SoonPeow and his friend after the F.I.R. concert, played 30/60, was actually winning quite a sum, then lost all of them at the last round.. thought i defenitely win everything that i'm gonna play nowadays.. because as the logic goes, qing chang si yi, du chang de yi!! maybe that SoonPeow friend's qing chang more jia lat than mine.. LOL!! poor guy.. hope he dont kill himself.. muahahahah!! ;p sat night went out with family to have dinner!! birthday celebration for me! dinner was good!! maternal grandma gave me a BIG ang bao! woo hoo! ;p she no money liao still gave me that much.. love her! =) celebrate with the nation la.. never got to see any fireworks though.. will catch it someday somehow.. =) then half-way thru the dinner, Jasmine called, jio me go chiong.. was pretty surprised, she dont look like those that will chiong.. chey! in the end is at ShaoHua's house chiong alcohol la.. wa.. second week in a row i'm drinking liao, the week before that drank with some volunteers, kaoz.. totally wasted.. shouldnt have drank so much.. didnt know my purpose of going there to drink also.. LOL! anyway, reach ShaoHua's house at around 1am, actually should reach earlier but because i had supper with Tracy before that, so drag a bit here and there la.. Jasmine, ShaoHua and one of their friend already there liao, plus ShoaHua's mum.. wa.. she really hot mum sia! never seen a more happening mum before! really like her.. =) we played daidee, then loser will drink lor.. damn.. the whole time is only the 3 of them drink, i only lost once.. i warned them beforehand liao, i surely win one because of the logic again.. =) the only drink i had was the one i poured myself at the beginning, Jasmine and her friend gone case after a few drinks, ShaoHua total knock out la.. LOL!! cannot make it lor.. in the end i super sober then went home 5am..

Sunday morning was supposed to go one of my shu shu house to bai bai my ah mah.. but i too tired le sia, so didnt go.. ah mah i'm sorry!! i just thought that going over with a tired mind will be more disrespectful to you! okok.. actually, i've not spoken in person to my ah mah before.. think she passed away even before i was born, then i think my ah gong passed away when i'm damn young la.. i think i got one photo of my dad and mum in front of his grave, one of them holding onto me, then we're showing respect to ah gong, i was smiling in that photo... -_-!! no wonder until now i still cannot find gf.. ah gong angry with me.. lol.. no la.. joking la.. my ah gong will bless me.. i hope.. =)that sunday afternoon whole family went down to the farmart to walk walk fish for prawns and have dinner.. when we're there, saw an event going on, bird competition!! eh not bad leh.. quite nice, got titles like most unique bird, most beautiful, 1st 2nd and 3rd prices too!! took photos too! nowadays i keep on having my camera around with me, just in case got something interesting to capture can take straight away! but no battery i also bo bian la.. anyway when we went for prawn fishing, cant believe it.. the king prawner(i'm the king la.. the uncle over there say one, not me! =p) at the last visit didnt score a freaking shrimp this time! damn.. i really dunno why.. i will try again!! *determined* =s dinner ok la.. kampong chicken, stingray, horfun, the usual lor.. wasnt feeling good because i failed at prawn catching! =s

Hmm.. jia lat, i totally forgot what i did on monday le.. OH! i think i went to the national library to try to do some research on my ER assignment, met up Cheryl Betty for lunch before that.. then took public transport down! i holland sia.. damn, i take public transport also can holland sia.. i thought that will only happen when i drive.. -_-! first time i went to a library to do a research for something! shows how much commitment i put in for my studies previously.. should have go and get to know friends who regard library as their second home! then i will also join them and excel baby! the whole research thing sucks la.. nothing much there also.. went to Bukit Panjang and CCK and JE library too.. nothing la.. haiz.. met up Tracy for dinner then go home slack.. =s

12/08/2008- I've always thought that birthdays are nothing for the one who's having the brithday but rather to the mum and dad of that kid.. to me, just another day, maybe a good day for excuses to meet up some friends or do something nice la.. like a designated day to have fun with you.. i thought my mum and dad will be more proud of this day because they will be thinking, "oh man! it's already been 22 years since i put up with this kiddo who seems to be doing nothing but making me angry and sucking up all my money! what an achievement! let's go celebrate, with him!", or somewhere near that line la.. didnt plan to go out at all that day because i had a test the next day and assignment due date coming soon and i'm not even near done.. anyway, alot of people sent greetings to me.. really grateful to them for remembering my birthdate.. =) some surprises and disappointments la.. although i know i shouldnt expect in the first place, but still.. it Sandra leh!! what the hell.. how could she had forget my brithdate!??! hahahah!! total shock, the shock level is like 10 out of 10... =p ok la.. understand that she's very busy with work and everything.. it's ok actually.. it's really nothing, she called me first thing in the morning the next day and apologised profusely even though i've told her its alright le.. somemore got msg also.. LOL! was hoping Cheong would remember too.. was hoping that someone would remember too.. but too bad there was no msg la, it was done thru msn instead.. damn.. shouldnt have went online during the early hours.. LOL!! all efforts appreciated! thanks to all! =) hmm.. went for class in the morning, then met up Cheryl Betty during the afternoon for lunch, again! she jio me for this lunch very long ago le.. she wasnt sure whether it was my birthday because of the reaction i gave her when she asked me out! hahahah!! and she gave me chocolates! woo! special sia.. never seen them before, cant bear to eat them at all leh.. maybe one day.. when i'm very hungry.. we went to teck whye first, then after that we went to her new house along the stretch of Bukit Batok road.. she haven move there la, but already got keys and only got some things there.. so the place only the 2 of us, so it's HUGE and felt good!! wa.. DAMM BIG la!! climb the stairs until gao gao! the top level is the best la.. like a small garden, definitely gonna visit her more often after she move in! muahahahha!! watch out Cheryl Betty! =p then after that i went home, met up Jia Hong and Zixiang during the night.. Zixiang gave me ang bao.. -_-! every year like that.. LOL! thanks anyway.. walk walk at the pasar malam then we suddenly had the thought of learning archery again.. the last time round didnt happen because think we're unsure la.. this time like very determined! went to the CC, straight away joined the Passion card member! fierce! we're serious this time round! steady la.. met another strange name, this time is the counter lady, Patsy, i think she was totally confused by the three of us because we kept playing and joking around.. =) went home after that to study, couldnt get anything in, was still having stupid thoughts.. but what a day, it was supposed to be one of the most beautiful day.. well.. it didnt happen, and i believe that happening of the didnt happen happens for a reason.. =s the future is unpredictable and that's what i like about it.. =)

Wednesday i went for school in the morning, was late for the class! had to sit all the way at the back of the lecture hall because it seems like everyone went for the same class! both class A and B, even the lecturer also stun.. he damn funny guy, love all his lectures! then this girl came in slightly more late than me, sat beside me, i forgot some notes and she shared hers with mine! friendly lady! had a small chat with her during the break, her name, Roseline, know a new friend liao! she's previously from CJC, she's taking marketing as her specialised module next sem too! she said we'll form a group as her friends all one module faster than her like mine.. so now i think my marketing group project mates will be Farhana, Vats and probably Roseline! and the module will only start half a year later! hahaha.. so i'm thinking confirm will change one la.. =s anyway, she continued to sit beside me after the break, saying going down to her friends there ma fan.. so shared notes with her again! really thankful.. hahahah.. then she didnt understand some topics i guided her sia.. repay her goodwill liao.. LOL! after lecture, went to study for the PM test, didnt get to finish studying the whole thing! damn it! luckily the questions that all came out i saw them before de.. or else i'm gonna regret for a long time sia.. should be able to score la.. after the test met up Jia Hong and Zixiang again to finalise the registration for the archery course, miss strange name Patsy was there too, together with her ever suan-ing colleague yun! kept on wishing me happy birthday and asking me what i did during my birthday! =s

Next day was normal lor, went to school for a full day of lesson, then at night chiong ER all the way because it's gonna due on friday.. i didnt sleep the whole night, had a one hour nap before chionging all the way until friday afternoon 6pm! fierce! i hate assignments! totally tired.. never had any lunch! think i anyhow crapped my assignment out.. not gonna score, hopefully i pass.. haiz.. disappointed sia.. thought i would be doing alright.. damn.. not gonna let that happen again! i promise! after handing in the assignment, met up Jasmine, Josephine, Shaohua, and Cheong for dinner at Bugis for my birthday celebration! they even more power, jio me like 2 weeks before liao.. respect.. LOL!! had dinner at some japanese restaurant, lousy la.. thought most jap restaurant will be good.. they surprised me with a cake and a present! a wallet! thanks! really nice wallet! =) wa.. then the same old tradition la.. one mouth finish the slice of cake lor.. i almost did it.. LOL! damn.. ice-cream cake leh! what u expect?! brain-freeze after that.. we wanted to go TCC after dinner to slack, budden both the TCC there fullhouse! darn it.. so we went back lor, sent all of them back, last one Josephine, she stay bedok! not really that far actually.. anything for Jospehine! ;p after that nothing to do liao, cant think of anyone to call out since i'm already at bedok, went to bedok reservior to walk walk alone, eh.. not bad leh.. quite nice.. another place to consider.. =)

Tracy jio me go club that night.. didnt want to do at first, but she told me she's going double O.. hmm.. heard alot about that place but never went there before.. so was very tempted to go there and take a look, even though its late le.. thought about it and decided to chiong home then take bus down.. i missed the last bus! haiz.. bo bian took cab down.. everytime i take cab, the uncle sure talk about army stuff.. and hearing the way they talk about it.. i'm pretty confident that Singapore is gonna win any and every war we're gonna be in.. they talk ma chiam they are rambo like that.. all super fit and training super tough and how they are tough too! this particular uncle a bit different, he is a slacker.. always AWOL and got into alot of toruble.. but he always got away with it because he had a secret with one of his superior.. i dont wanna say it here, later i kena charge for saying things online.. scared.. hum ji.. just ORD dont risked it.. so if there's anyone who is actually reading this and wanna know.. call and ask me bah.. =) reached double O le, saw Tracy, she introduced me to all her friends and cousin.. nice people there, some really care about Tracy i can see.. especially Lucas and Audrey.. and her cousin Marisa.. the drinks over at double O like free one like that!! wa.. they kept on buying and treating then drink and drink lor, Tracy super high when i'm there.. i just wanted to take a look round.. it's nice and fun!! because miss Tracy wanted to smoke but cant be in possession of any cigrettes, i went to buy instead.. cannot finish them that night, i really chiong liao, think i had more than 10 sticks that night.. crazy.. finished the last stick last night.. took a walk around the neigbourhood and finish them! =) the only bad thing about double O is they close too early! damn.. 3am++ only.. waste my money.. LOL! then Tracy's friends all wanted to hop to another club/pub/bar, so in the end they settled for nana bar.. walked all the way there.. no cover charge la.. it's a thai bar there and got live band there.. hot girls dancing around.. but i was busy dancing with Marisa instead, LOL!! i remember most of it as she tries to teach me tango and salsa.. tango seems real difficult.. Tracy's friends opened a bottle of chivas there.. then we all drank like crazy there.. think i went over the live near the end, vomitted after i alighted from the cab back home! =s third week in a row i drank alcohol liao.. was damn high until i dunno i msg-ing Marisa or Tracy towards the end.. LOL! but that night wasnt that bad.. quite fun.. though i still think Marisa looks nothing like Tracy's older cousin.. still cant believe it.. =D and she's quite cute and good looking too! =p

Reached home 6am reeking of alcohol smell, at least that's what my mum told me la.. LOL!! told her i very tired and wanted to go sleep le.. woke up 12pm, had a mild hangover.. =s went for SHG as usual.. this session not bad.. fun! the kids had to do a skit about the story they changed from the folklore weeks before.. for my group, Benjamin was the narrator, he's really smart! Kenny, Boon Neng and Jadie acted in the skit.. that Kenny and Boon Neng really hard to control.. buay ta han.. but getting better le i think.. haiz.. must really understand them then use different method to settle them down.. Boon Neng was more participative this time round.. improvement! Kenny was the usual loud but at least this time round he listened to me more compared to other times.. Jadie i felt she's more relaxed and open with me being around.. she used to be very quiet, dont reply my qns, only a nod, a smile or laugh everytime.. improvement too! steady la.. more please! hahahah! our group did quite well for the skit though we missed out on some details, i was like the director, fun! proud of them! *claps* after the SHG session, went to kopitiam with the other volunteers for a birthday celebration for Kai Xiang and me! got birthday cake somemore, though i had to carry it myself la.. =s what the hell lor.. LOL!! ;p really happy and thankful to have them as friends.. though that day quite a number didnt come.. but still! fun! =) went to play mahjong with CK after that.. he jio me, saying he short of one ka.. will be playing with his sister and cousin! what the hell?! family outing ar!? hahaha.. at first a bit worried, but since he said we only playing 20/40, plus given CK's character, dont think he'll wanna cheat my money la.. ai ya.. at most also can only cheat 50 bucks? plus i'm confident i'll win.. because of the logic! i should be doing good nowadays! =) then in the end i really won gao gao sia! super on form that day.. treated them to supper.. home sweet home! =)

Woke up 12pm++, late for archery class! but the class a bit dry la.. only theory.. boring.. i wanna shoot! LOL! budden i think it's still important to know all the basics and foundations.. so listen all the way lor.. next week then shoot! cant wait.. class ended 3pm, chiong down to Jia Wei's baby Ryan first month celebration! woo hoo!! saw loads of old friends there! had a great chat with them.. saw Chew Ling too! hahahh! that girl.. super surprised to see her at the N.E.X.T. challenge the other time.. she jio me go night cycling with people at her CC! i was thinking.. not another night cycling!! LOL! but of course i said ok la.. hopefully she remembers to contact me.. =p then after that celebration of Ryan's one month, i went down to Jurong Point to meet Sandra and Ling for mine and Ling's brithday celebration! had dinner at Billy Bombers.. chatted with them.. Sandra really power.. she always seems to be able to knock some proper sense into me.. i dont get it sia.. she makes it so easy and made everything feel so smooth and easy, made me felt stupid i had my thinkings earlier on.. haiz.. i dunno what i'll become without her.. Sandra the best! =) though we never meet up so often le.. not even telephone calls.. but i really hope our friendship will carry on forever!! =) after dinner went to watch movie, money not enough 2! eh.. it's not as good as i heard it is lor.. everyone told me to go watch it, say it's damn good and everything, i think it's not good leh.. other than a couple of funny scenes plus touching moments.. nothing much le.. boring.. went home to slack, called Blackie Ariel up to chit chat.. it's really strange, i dunno why but she's the only one that i feel that i can chat with her forever.. really super talkative the both of us.. it's always fun chatting with her.. chatted till about 3am+++.. =s

Today went to school in the afternoon to meet Daphne and get her HMT textbook because i need it badly! was called back to school by miss Meng Choo because i forgot to attach the cover sheet plus marking sheet on my assignment! haaiz.. blur king.. =s then on my way back, saw Fai Ming! oh man! hahaha.. had a long and good chat with him.. sent him to CCK station before home sweet home! mom cooked hokkien mee today! hmm.. not bad, altho a bit dry.. but still nice~ mum's cooking the best! =)

Hmm... okok.. think i'll stop here for today.. i calculated, i typed more than 4000 words today! fierce! and i struggled with the 2000 words essay! damn.. LOL! too much too much.. will update soon again! now it's already 3:25am.. body clock cocked up le.. =s

Fattydevil

Birthday 2008

I believe every year will have different birthday feelings for everyone, one year it will be good, some will be bad.. this year i guess its more of the middle for me.. am gonna make this a quick one i hope, it's already 5am and i have class tml morning at 930am. not sure about how i'm gonna survive since i have as assignment to rush out before friday too.. god bless..

Past few weeks really very busy, signed up for kickboxing lesson with farhana and vats last week, signed up for archery with jia hong and zixiang today, planning to sign up for salsa class with tracy this coming sept, am planning to go learn property and maybe try to make a sale or two.. but that one very expensive, gonna set me back at 600 bucks.. crazy.. still thinking about it.. actually if possible i also wanna go learn ba zhi and feng shui, but really not much money left le.. the ba zhi class will cost $350! i'm not sure why suddenly this period like so much things to learn, or maybe i'm just trying to pack myself with activities so that i wun feel empty?! i'm not sure though.. things that i will learn before end of this year, french, motorcycle, guitar, piano(i hope).. i hope there's more to come..

I'm not sure how many thinking have changed this past month, its pretty scary, nothing is gonna shake up my mental state, nothing came close so far and i'm sure in the future nothing will be near.. i'm thinking alot, really alot nowadays, too much thinking le.. i'm puzzled, looking at things from many angles, i just dont get it.. its pretty frightening about the mentality of the world..

I'm too tired to think.. gotta go rest and come back and blog again someday.. anyway, changed my address link because i thought that i dont wanna be a fatty devil anymore! time to change to be a good boy! maybe skinny angle also not bad! then i think back, people dont really change do they?! i think i'm gonna change back to the old address link again.. will see how.. not that it's important, dont think anyone read this anyway.. =)