I need.. Sleep..

Was up the whole night, am afraid that i cant wake up in time, need to wake up at 9am to prepare to go send flowers! my new found part time job, i'm a flower delivery man! just passing time i guess, pretty interesting too, send to many different places to different people.. so far i've only delivered flowers to either schools or aunties.. waiting for the day when i'll see a pretty lady infront of me and see their smile.. that will be nice i think.. =) later i'm gonna go to 5 different places.. busy day, am gonna be so damn tired.. now i'm already pretty tired, dunno how i'm gonna survive thru the whole day.. hahahah..

Went for salsa ytd night, fun!! must really write down what i've learnt and practice more! i went to buy lunch the other day and guess who i bump into? my salsa teacher!! goodness, what coincidence, he just stay 2 blocks away from me! i believe this is a calling for me to be a salsa master! hahahh.. just started on a new course, new class, new 'classmates', quite a number of interesting characters.. they are all working adults over there, i'm the little boy in the group.. =s i went for the social night thingy last friday, eye opener! really saw lots of good salsa dancers and they can really moovveeee.. totally no confidence in myself and ended up not really dancing but just looking at others dancing is pretty nice.. it's not really expensive anyway.. $5 only.. still can afford that.. pretty jealous, wanna jump to their level straight but i dont think i can, even with lots of training, but you never know unless you've tried.. =)

Missed a couple of archery lessons due to the weather and wrong timing of make up class.. anyway confirmed not gonna continue after this course as financially i'm just now there, i dont even wanna spend the money on a pair of dancing shoes, to think i'll spend close to a grand for all the equipments.. =s maybe in the future when i'm earning enough.. think Jia Hong is gonna stop too.. too bad.. there goes our elves journey.. it means now i can make it for volleyball sessions with SH's friends! i think volleyball is pretty fun.. alot of teamwork and communication involved.. maybe can put more time into yoga! there's another slot for yoga in the afternoon from 5-6pm every sunday too! same instructor.. hmmm.. thinking..

Oh man.. i'm really tired now, eyes closing.. argh! today is gonna be a bad day.. =s i miss the past, i really wanna rewind my life back and live it again.. other than some idiotic decisions here and there, its really been a perfect life for me.. cant ask for anything more i guess.. everything happens for a reason.. =s at the same time i also want to fast forward to my future! either rewind or fast forward.. when you dont think of your past, your problems are the present that might spread to the future.. when you think of your past mistakes, you enjoy every present moment and look forward to the future.. so should we think of our past or not?! when you're in control of things, you might just mess it up and spoil everything, the whole picture will be like damn big and damn near to you that you dont have space to breath.. when you're not in control of the situation, you think of perfect solutions and either wanna guide or teach the other party or else you'll curse and swear at the other party who cant think the same way as you do.. so should we want to be in control or not?! can we even control that in the first place?? =s everything happens for a reason..... and there is a reason for everything that happens.. same meaning?! hahah.. =s i'm really, really, really really down on my luck nowadays.. my life is crumbling right in front of me and i cannot do anything! my vocab very limited, maybe things are not as bad but i dunno how to use other words to describe it.. hahah.. perhaps.. perhaps.. perhaps that's why i'm thinking so much, or else it's because i dont have enough sleep! =)

Am going to bathe now, maybe will perk me up alittle i hope.. another busy weekend made busy by myself.. LOL! =) will come back and post more weird things soon.. =)

Fattydevil

Changes

Its really dark outside now, maybe due to the fact that the corridor lights are still not on until 7pm.. raining pretty fierce now, it was still looking good during the early afternoon, then suddenly everything changes.. lightning and thunder! rainy season i guess, spoiled my fishing plan ytd, and also the plan for archery later as well.. hope not.. =s

Haven't been feeling all that good nowadays.. no particular reason, just the feel.. changes.. the only thing constant now is change, how everything can be so different in just a matter of months.. really miss alot of things.. missed quite alot too.. =s well, cant turn back time, and i believe everything happens for a reason, be it good or bad, we have to take it and hopefully look on the positive side of it.. how one event can change the whole outlook of that person's life, change his thinking, his perception and everything is amazing.. changes also make you look back and appreciate what you have in front of you now, so many things i realised i've taken for granted for so long, my family, my mum, my dad, my brother, and many many friends.. but nothing is too late i hope, the only thing is whether i'll have the chance.. there's still so much in life that i've not experience and understand.. =)

Having my holidays now! plan to slack it off, relax and see what happens.. either gonna be very eventful or slightly peaceful.. hopefully is slightly peaceful lor.. but nobody know what will happen in the future so just let it come i guess.. =) results i guess wun be that nice, just wanna pass la, please let me pass!! =) hopefully i can sell Cheryl's condo by then, my property life is really taking a downturn, something like the economy.. discipline is required and i have none of that! =s am still in the archery thing but i guess i have to stop after this course as personal equipment is needed to continue further and its gonna cost a cool $900+, dont think my fnancial status will allow me to do that.. just have fun for as long as possible.. yoga still as fun la, i really look forward to every session, very soothing effect, makes me empty my mind totally and feel at peace inside out.. i like and miss that feel.. =)

Pretty much more involved with salsa nowadays, they are a fun bunch, new friends for new course, too bad Tracy couldnt join me, all because of a crazy reason i think.. LOL! i totally didnt see that coming, everything was pretty much a blur.. in the end got a scolding from Sandra for being too insensitive.. women are all crazy creatures, dont disturb them, they bite.. hard.. =p well, at least everything is cleared up right now, which is good because i think Tracy is worthy of a friend, and i've lost too many friends this year alone.. freaky.. not that they die la, just not friends anymore.. darn sad.. this new group of friends from salsa, they are the working adult bunch, i'm the little boy in the group, can u believe it, little boy! hahahh.. and we're an international group too! i'm the only chinese and worse of all with bad english in the group now.. =s improving nonetheless.. LOL!! =s cool people and i'm guessing the group is gonna get bigger as we go! all pretty ladies too! well, i guess handsome guys and pretty ladies do get along.. =p hahahha!!

celebration for Roh's brithday
Am going for the archery class now.. practice more! =) hopefully i'll get to come back more often to update more on my boring life.. =s good luck to everyone on everything.. smile as usual and always.. always look on the positive side of things.. =) oh! before i forget,
Happy Brithday to Phyllis! =)