Friendship 3.5

Busy rush damn packed! now my life is like totally stuffed with activities le, activites that i do not know whether i can keep up with or not, so much things! must keep focus on everything, seem to lose myself so easily nowadays, but i'm pretty much back on track, now is an important period in my life, another book, a new chapter, another paragraph, new sentence, another word, capital letter. i'm so not sure whether i'm ready for it.. gotta just bring it on and we'll see!!

Went to sign up for the training course today at Propnex, so now i'm officially training to be a real estate agent le! hmm.. anyone who has any enquires or wish to buy/sell/rent anything regarding property can look for me! this challenge quite exicting, super new, taking risk! good luck! i'm doing it with Dennis, it's always more fun with another friend with you. we're gonna chiong all the way! at least that's what he said~ =) paid $628 for it! damn expensive! but at the end of it will receive a cert and i'm thinking i can learn alot with this course alone so i went ahead with it. i didnt know there's 4 lessons per week for the course! i only know of it just before i paid for the course, too lazy to turn back and think about it again. so now every mon, wed, fri, and sat i'm going for the course training, 7 to 10pm! it took me exactly 1 hour to reach back home today! crap! but public transport really more fun la.. cheaper too.. ;p

Told my dad that i want a payroll system for me.. i'm asking for $400 per month, so little right?! i use to take almost double of that amount at army, plus i've been asking around and almost everyone is drawing a higher 'pay' than me.. LOL! too bad my family poor, so i have to really have proper money management plan le.. another challenge, so if i wanna continue to learn all those things that i want to learn by this year, and also excel at being a property agent, every cent count now.. no more spending with one eye closed le.. save save save! i'm planning to take bus to school, petrol really killing, but that means i'll have to wake up damn early lor.. =s now i have to big out $100 for the salsa lessons.. damn.. should have taken $$ from mum before i open that stupid mouth of mine to discuss about the monthly allowance! =s nvm! challenge! at most not enough $$ go borrow from friends lor.. hiak hiak hiak! here i come people! get ready to receive my call! =p

Salsa lesson happening on every thurs night, super zhun, like jigsaw puzzle fit till so nicely the timing, so the only day of the week i'm gonna be free will be tuesdays.. sunday i've got archery.. and i'm actually planning to add yoga into the scehdule too, probably sunday mornings.. will really have to see how that goes.. haiz.. cannot neglect studies! later go revise on macro and micro econs! =) anyway i'm not planning to sleep tonight, going to ta han all the way till 9pm then sleep all the way till the next day, then continue that healthy lifestyle all the way! i'm gonna reduce the number of suppers and sleepless nights! better if no more, but i think that is pretty difficult.. reduce first lor.. must have a plan out and follow it! discipline and commitment! something which i've not practised consistently, the longest i went i think was probably 3 weeks, after that back to old habits.. i'm planning to break that record since it seems like breaking records is as easy as breaking eggs during the Olympics!

Weekends are as usual, nowhere near home! =s home is just like hotel, just for sleep.. must change out that kind of mentality.. saturday went for SHG as usual, it's chinese chess week! lesson conducted by Hui, at first i thought he's only gonna teach them the strategies and how to play the game, but he included the history of chinese chess! didnt know that's such thing, like very related to the history of China.. nice~! but kids being kids, they're not really interested in chinese chess, i think my group only Deline interested to learn, Kenny and Boon Neng as usual just goofing around, touching and disturbing everything in sight, even Benjamin seem uninterested, pretty surprised, thought that would be a game he'll be interested in.. hahahah! thinking game mah, and he's clever i think.. LOL! he's like very unsettled.. oh well, i got pretty bored too because the level they are in are really too low le, tried to be patient and teach them a bit here and there lor.. Boon Neng thinks he know the game very well and kept on challenging me to a game, Kenny also another one.. Deline and Benjamin just kept quiet.. towards the end it got more interesting because Cindy, another volunteer in my group, tried to learn together with the kids because she didnt know how to play too!! it's nicer to learn together.. then i just gave them tips and guide them on the rules.. i'm speaking like i'm a expert in the game, i'm not! =s one more thing i find puzzling is about another volunteer.. he's supposed to be the volunteer leader for my group, since i'm new and Cindy not really experienced also.. he came that sat, but he sat with another group all the while, i didnt realise that until today when i was thinking about the kids.. my thoughts quite irrelevant la.. anyway, now that i think of it, i dont quite get what he is trying to proof.. is it just a one off incident? or is it he dont like the group and chose to give up on them? well, i just thought that's a wrong thinking and approach, how will the kids think if they know that's happening? in life, not everything will do the way you want or wish it will be.. accept them as they come, dont run away from the problem.. i'm not reprimanding that volunteer at all, i'm not in the position to do so, i'm not him, dunno what he is really thinking, though i must admit i was little disappoint and demoralised by his actions, never even went to talk to the kids! =s whatever~

That saturday night itself went to Janice's 21st brithday party! met up with Jiahong and on the way met Betty Cheryl.. it's just like a gathering session, a catch up session for everyone, i'm not really close with anyone in particular there, maybe Jiahong only.. the rest really is not even those meet up once or twice in a year, they are those heng heng will meet on the streets then will talk cock abit here and there lor.. was with Betty's group all night, not really that comfortable with some people there.. so i'm stuck with a group of young people all night, talking about uni stuff.. how boring.. SIM like very simple and straight forward, NUS and NTU like super complicated.. Betty even worse, she only from the school of flower girl! hahaha! she damn funny la.. =) after the birthday celebration, went for mahjong!! woo hoo! won won won! =)

Sunday afternoon rained! the archery course postponed~!! darn sianz.. was looking forward to shooting some arrows actually.. then stayed at home watched the olympic basketball finals! USA vs. Spain! wa.. not bad, thought will be thrashing, in the end quite exciting.. USA won! yesh! kobe my fav player, i'm starting to like CP13 too! think he's super cool.. at night met up with Ling and Sandra! went for supper, tong shui! the second time in 3 days for me.. Sandra like unhappy the whole trip like that.. =s not i make her angry one! innocent! =) after the supper, sent Sandra home first.. should have sent Ling back first la.. haiz.. because got lost when i sending Ling back.. got lost in Lim Chu Kang.. dunno how i got there also.. we practically went round the whole of kranji plus Lim Chu Kang, went so deep until we reach the neo tiew area, my army urban warfare training site! wa.. quite nice to see that place again, memories.. though i heard alot of stories regarding ghosty stuff la.. i kept on scaring Ling all the way.. hahah.. damn funny.. she kept on screaming.. damn loud!! =s we got lost inside for more than 1 hour!! damn it.. another record made.. petrol expensive! the meter was actually above the half way gauge before i got lost! then after i finally got her to her house, looking at the gauge itself will make me pek cek.. waste petrol la! darn! =s

Got a message from a special friend.. ai yo.. really got me thinking.. i dont think i'll ever recover if i dont have her.. the support and direction in my life.. but everyone will have to lead their own live.. i think the truth is, i'm just scared, i dont want to.. it's very very fustrating for me.. alot of change in my life.. sad changes.. it's not the same anymore.. nothing can be the same i guess.. i really dunno what to think.. pretty confused and lost? =s

Going over to my parent's room to sleep now! got air con! asked my mum not to off the air con before she left the house.. i lazy to on mine, anyway i think mine not cold one leh.. sucks la.. =s go rest i think.. not sure i can ta han the whole day bo.. is this a lack of discipline?! whatever lor~ who cares.. =)

FattyVanDevil