Grey Days Ahead???

Past few days are what i call grey days, wherever i looked at whichever direction, everything is in the colour of grey. dont really remember me having such days before, guess many reasons can claim responsibility for my eyesight problem. Death, received news of 3 people death, although they are all unrelated to me, but their cause of death are all very heart-wrenching. one of them is during the Army Half Marathon(AHM) run, heard that he collapsed right after he finished his run and didnt really recover from there, hes a regular from OCS, rank captain. 2nd case is one of felicia's friend, she committed suicide. when i heard the news, i was both angry and sad, angry because how could she look at life this way and end it so simply?? and she did it for studies fyi. its fustrating how people destroy their lifes when they are this good while other dont even get the chance no matter how they longed for it. im sad because i sympathise with her situation, how i wish i could have done something to help her. =s the third case im not really sure about the cause, read it from fulvia's blog. bless that person too. have fun in heaven.

I went for this AHM last sunday, complusory for all army personnel. reported there 7am, was planning to go for the 6km run/walk, never trained at all how to run?!?! plus i just had a mj session with sandra and co. till 3am that morning itself, had less than 2 hours of sleep, was thinking that if i ran 12/21km, i might just die there. in the end, i went for the 12km run, because jian wen and daniel both went so i just join them lor. jian wen really freaking fit, at first ran with him, but that didnt last very long, at most the first 300m, the rest practically just trying to catch up to him. =s very nice feeling running after so long of slacking. after trying my fatty best to chase him for 3km, i gave up, told him to go by himself while i walked myself down the packed yet lonely road ahead of me. LOL! daniel worse, once we started running lost him straight away. along the way was trying very hard to find familiar face but totally failed, not even one!! thought what happened to me, so many people and cant even find one friend from there, and i remember all my army friends at unit la, means they have to run the 21km, think im the only one who ran 12km, too slack. =s used the lady runners there as motivation, use them as my pacer, then overtake when they slow down and look for the next target. hahahah!! sort of worked la, but physically i really down le so in the end i also walked most of the way, enjoying the the crowd, the drinks, the bands, the cheerleaders, who actually ran after me to get me running again!! ahahahah!! damn interesting! it was also very nice to see the sunday morning sun, think its the first time this year i've actually saw that because every sunday by the time i wake up i only see the sorching hot afternoon sun, morning is the best!! =) already looking forward to next year's run. =)

Last saturday went to vivocity to meet up josephine, jasmine, cheong, dennis, nelson and wilson for a very belated birthday celebration for me. still very happy and excited that all these people managed to take time out of their business schedule to meet up and have a simply lunch together. went to different restaurants because we couldn't decide on which one to dine in, some dont wanna eat buffet, some dont wan spend much, some dont want this and that, so in the end we decided on the white dog cafe(think is the name), quite nice, good view and nice atmostphere. cheong gave my royce chocolates for my present! still remember the first time i got royce chocolates for joyce, cheong also there to buy with me! then he say no Joyce eat Royce lor~!! hahahah!! the choco very nice! highly recommended! Josephine and Jasmine gave a shirt from the top shop, then almost everyone thinks that they shirt dont suit me, so we went down to top shop together after the meal to change for different shirts, changed in total 4 shirts! but i took size M for all shirts. i would have preferred L but they all say M better, trusted them so just take lor, anyway is present from them, just listen, take and wear. Dennis gave me a pair of tennis shorts! really thanks for all the gifts!! glad to have friends like u guys, im a lucky guy! =)

Before i went for this meet up last sat, i was preparing at home, trying to wear my contact lens!! i just bought a pair recently, dont wanna waste it, just try to use them everytime i go out except for during work at army la. my parents not happy with it because they are damn worried for me, they know the dangers of using it, the user cant sleep with contacts on or else they might risk losing their eyesight due to lack of oxygen to the internal part of the eyes, according to soon peow la, and my parents know that i'm those kind who's damn lazy and can sleep anywhere anytime without thinking. dangerous. at first i was a bit hesistant, but decided to try it out la, bought enough to last for 2months, im touching my eyeballs~!! interesting!! =) anyway, i was putting on my contacts before meeting them last sat, first the right lens, took my a couple of tries before it decided to stay in, then the left side, it dropped when its still no on hands!! tried to find it but couldnt as i cant waer my specs because the right lens is in so im like half blind, and plus i'm already late for the appointment, i decided to give up and wear specs to meet them. =s wasted. i lost my left contact lens just like that!! damn. =s

Today is such a good day~!!! woo hoo~! love it! early morning raining huge cats and enormous dogs!! decided to drive in to work, dont wanna get myself too wet. went to the range as usual, but the rain didnt stop. the air smells nice, the wind cooling! slept thru the morning till lunch came, with the mosquitoes working their socks off!! think i kena like 20 bites from those bloodsuckers! i already look big size le, now with all the mosquito bites, i look bigger! =s anyway, the rain just continues and goes on and on and on even after lunch, so theres no way the shooters can shoot and by 3pm, the coach decided to call it quits for today and everyone pack up! woo hoo~!! everything went smoothly after that and i reached home by 4pm!! been long since i reached home so early. =) slacked all the way, surf online. night activities yet again!! met up betty at ard 830pm to go to the tea party at bukit timah to chill, reached there but the shop is closed! due to the air con got problem, how lucky~!! wanted to go to the indian restaurants to dine, but i feel that we're wearing too inappropriate and plus betty had dinner at home le, so didnt go lor. went to the luving lionel cafe instead, had milkshake plus cheesecake, the place quite nice, later on blackie came to join us from work, chatted on till about 11pm then i sent them home. nice to meet them up. =)

Talk about night activities, play mj for a couple of nights, mixed results, won 23 bucks the first night, lost 43 during the second night!! darn! can understand why i won that 23bucks at first but cant understand why i lost the second night, im supposed to win!! darn... hmm... dont tell me.. theres gonna be a change to my fate~!?!?! hahahah.. lets just hope so.. =) went to the movies with sandra and ling at vivo a few nights earlier, watched hairspray! nice~ damn funny and entertaining! highly recommended! told sandra the problem i faced and kena a scolding and some beatings out from her!! a wake up scolding from her for me, thanks again and also to zixiang, gave me a few advice la.. but if he also gave me a few beatings, i may not have survived.. =p

Now i think i have some new problems. i cannot go to sleep after 7pm or before 12am everyday no matter how tired and sleepy i am! i still dont know why i cant, i find it very wasted and boring to try to sleep before 12. like life during 1 to 3am is the greatest of hours for the whole of that day. i dont know why, and i suffer the next day because i'll be damn sleepy and tired for the whole day. someone help me! =s mentality got problem i think. guess just let nature take its course. anything wanna happen i also cant help much. now my goals in life are..... to train myself up physically, especially during range when i have so much free time at hand, go exercise regularly, be it wakeboarding, tennis, running or whatever, just exercise! And to sleep before 12am everyday!! i'll try my very best to accomplish all of that! jia you!! woo hoo~!!! =)

Yours,
Fattydevil aka James Monk Lok
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