I need.. Sleep..

Was up the whole night, am afraid that i cant wake up in time, need to wake up at 9am to prepare to go send flowers! my new found part time job, i'm a flower delivery man! just passing time i guess, pretty interesting too, send to many different places to different people.. so far i've only delivered flowers to either schools or aunties.. waiting for the day when i'll see a pretty lady infront of me and see their smile.. that will be nice i think.. =) later i'm gonna go to 5 different places.. busy day, am gonna be so damn tired.. now i'm already pretty tired, dunno how i'm gonna survive thru the whole day.. hahahah..

Went for salsa ytd night, fun!! must really write down what i've learnt and practice more! i went to buy lunch the other day and guess who i bump into? my salsa teacher!! goodness, what coincidence, he just stay 2 blocks away from me! i believe this is a calling for me to be a salsa master! hahahh.. just started on a new course, new class, new 'classmates', quite a number of interesting characters.. they are all working adults over there, i'm the little boy in the group.. =s i went for the social night thingy last friday, eye opener! really saw lots of good salsa dancers and they can really moovveeee.. totally no confidence in myself and ended up not really dancing but just looking at others dancing is pretty nice.. it's not really expensive anyway.. $5 only.. still can afford that.. pretty jealous, wanna jump to their level straight but i dont think i can, even with lots of training, but you never know unless you've tried.. =)

Missed a couple of archery lessons due to the weather and wrong timing of make up class.. anyway confirmed not gonna continue after this course as financially i'm just now there, i dont even wanna spend the money on a pair of dancing shoes, to think i'll spend close to a grand for all the equipments.. =s maybe in the future when i'm earning enough.. think Jia Hong is gonna stop too.. too bad.. there goes our elves journey.. it means now i can make it for volleyball sessions with SH's friends! i think volleyball is pretty fun.. alot of teamwork and communication involved.. maybe can put more time into yoga! there's another slot for yoga in the afternoon from 5-6pm every sunday too! same instructor.. hmmm.. thinking..

Oh man.. i'm really tired now, eyes closing.. argh! today is gonna be a bad day.. =s i miss the past, i really wanna rewind my life back and live it again.. other than some idiotic decisions here and there, its really been a perfect life for me.. cant ask for anything more i guess.. everything happens for a reason.. =s at the same time i also want to fast forward to my future! either rewind or fast forward.. when you dont think of your past, your problems are the present that might spread to the future.. when you think of your past mistakes, you enjoy every present moment and look forward to the future.. so should we think of our past or not?! when you're in control of things, you might just mess it up and spoil everything, the whole picture will be like damn big and damn near to you that you dont have space to breath.. when you're not in control of the situation, you think of perfect solutions and either wanna guide or teach the other party or else you'll curse and swear at the other party who cant think the same way as you do.. so should we want to be in control or not?! can we even control that in the first place?? =s everything happens for a reason..... and there is a reason for everything that happens.. same meaning?! hahah.. =s i'm really, really, really really down on my luck nowadays.. my life is crumbling right in front of me and i cannot do anything! my vocab very limited, maybe things are not as bad but i dunno how to use other words to describe it.. hahah.. perhaps.. perhaps.. perhaps that's why i'm thinking so much, or else it's because i dont have enough sleep! =)

Am going to bathe now, maybe will perk me up alittle i hope.. another busy weekend made busy by myself.. LOL! =) will come back and post more weird things soon.. =)

Fattydevil